While driving back from Yuma Tinker took a turn for the worse. He was coughing more and started to cough up some fluids that were pink, leading me to believe there was some blood. I held him on my lap for a number of hours driving through Nevada and into Idaho. I sang to him and told him I understood if he needed to go. Along about Boise he was having a hard time staying on my lap. Since I was driving a U haul I asked Sky to hold Tinker, laying on the couch in the RV. Just after entering Oregon, Shane exited to a rest area and by the time I was able to park and get into the RV my little Tinker was gone. He was almost 12 so I know he had a nice long life but I really didn't need to loose him too right now.
One thing odd is Danny started having liver issues and then Kabuki started having liver issues and Kabuki died 2 months and a few days after Danny. Now, Tinker was diagnosed with a heart murmur in October, Dad passes from a sudden heart attack and just 2 months and a couple days later Tinker is gone.
I have buried my baby near my home and I am planning to plant a Dwarf Japanese Red Maple next to him this spring. Here is the headstone I have ordered for him.
I got word it has shipped and is due to arrive on dad's birthday. It is granite, I think it is beautiful and it should look nice under the tree.
I am thankful I have a wonderful husband who has been so amazing at holding me together these last couple months. I long for the day I manage to not cry, I feel that day may never come though.
