Tinker

While driving back from Yuma Tinker took a turn for the worse.  He was coughing more and started to cough up some fluids that were pink, leading me to believe there was some blood.  I held him on my lap for a number of hours driving through Nevada and into Idaho.  I sang to him and told him I understood if he needed to go.  Along about Boise he was having a hard time staying on my lap.  Since I was driving a U haul I asked Sky to hold Tinker, laying on the couch in the RV.  Just after entering Oregon, Shane exited to a rest area and by the time I was able to park and get into the RV my little Tinker was gone.  He was almost 12 so I know he had a nice long life but I really didn't need to loose him too right now.


One thing odd is Danny started having liver issues and then Kabuki started having liver issues and Kabuki died 2 months and a few days after Danny.  Now, Tinker was diagnosed with a heart murmur in October, Dad passes from a sudden heart attack and just 2 months and a couple days later Tinker is gone.


I have buried my baby near my home and I am planning to plant a Dwarf Japanese Red Maple next to him this spring.  Here is the  headstone I have ordered for him.

I got word it has shipped and is due to arrive on dad's birthday.  It is granite, I think it is beautiful and it should look nice under the tree. 


I am thankful I have a wonderful husband who has been so amazing at holding me together these last couple months.  I long for the day I manage to not cry, I feel that day may never come though.